So I have been on the ‘T’ for about four days now. I didn’t really expect to feel different in such a short space of time – but there is definitely something happening – something really good!
I can only link the changes in myself to a film that happens to be one of my favourites from my childhood era – Teen Wolf.
In my case I am ‘T Wolf’. I never expected any of this – hair is starting to appear in places where it wasn’t present at all and I’m starting to feel VERY different in myself. In the film Scott discovers that puberty for him means turning into a werewolf at rather random times – and during this time he also becomes a top-notch Basketball player. I’m not by any means turning into a werewolf nor do I feel like I could have a career change and become the next Luol Deng – I do however feel more confident and my everyday focus on getting things done is improving!
So what is different other than Tony appearing on my chest? Who is Tony – Tony (only) the one hair – that’s how it starts. One leads to another and so on and so forth. My appetite is more than it was – I’m getting the urge to eat a lot more! I feel like my energy level is through the roof. I am waking up much earlier than before at around 06:30am (probably normal for everyone else) and doing chores before work. WTF – chores?? Yes – it’s bonkers!
Oh and before I forget to mention it – I now have to wear glasses all the time – this is an unrelated change! More of a ‘just in-case’ you happen to see the ‘T Wolf’ surfin’ USA on the top of a van through the wild streets of Guildford then this is really me…
Finally remember that scene from Teen Wolf where it’s the house party and Scott ends up in the cupboard with Boof? & he gets an uncontrollable urge… I appear to feel the urge more so than I did before! Except I don’t own a cupboard and there is no Boof 🙁
I will be creating some form of video to document my experiences – they will not be voyeuristic of me applying the gel! Just some thoughts about the transformation – probably not like this either;
I picked up the ‘T’ yesterday. I was really excited to get it finally and got up mega early for me at about 5am. I got the chemist at 8am and they didn’t open until 9am. So I parked myself in Costa coffee and had a nice cappuccino to calm the nerves.
When I got it, I ran back to the office to apply it!
The ‘T’ comes in a pump action bottle – fairly small – and can easily fit in a wash bag so that you can take it away with you on holiday. First of all you have to prime the pump. Fairly straight forward – you just take the top off of it, and then press 8 times on the pump. It’s best to do it over the sink as some of the gel will come out – don’t worry just wash this off your hands with soap and water.
Next came the application part. I had read a few horror stories on-line about the gel being sticky and taking forever to be absorbed into the skin. So I decided to do it one squirt at a time and then ease it into my stomach area. The leaflet that comes with the tube suggests rubbing it into your stomach one day and then alternating between your inner thighs for the next. The gel that comes out is odourless and comes out in a teaspoonful amount. I didn’t find it too sticky and it seemed to absorb quite easily into my stomach area. 6 squirts later and all was done. Washed my hands – put back on my top and my colleagues were non-the wiser what had just taken place in the bathroom at work.
I sat for a few minutes wondering if I would start to feel strange or itchy. Nothing really changed. Got to lunch time and I felt absolutely ravenous – so I had a massive meal, probably more than usual. Towards the end of the day I felt myself getting tired as usual and just wanted to escape home and sleep.
I wasn’t really feeling any different other than a burning sensation on my chin, this could be attributed to the fact that I had my 3-weekly shave that morning – as a test to see if anything would grow during the day. I think I was being optimistic – but there is definitely more growth than normal!
When I got home it was pretty cold so I got into my lounge wear hopped on my bed and went sparko. Woke up to the sound of the neighbours having a shouting match and throwing things around. At first I thought it was my neighbour upstairs but then I realised it was the next door neighbours. This was 10pm and I was still tired so I decided to go to the toilet and follow-up with another snooze. This is the interesting bit! Normally when I got to the toilet a small amount of pee comes out – cause I pee quite often during the day. I hadn’t really thought about it in too much detail and then when I remembered I hadn’t actually pee’d all day. So when I went it was like the scene from Austin Powers where he keeps peeing for ever and ever and at one point I was wondering if I was ever going to stop! It did stop eventually! Is this going to be the norm from now on? I hope not!
I got back into bed and fell asleep. Going to bed mega early is probably not the best decision – I woke up wide awake at 2am and feeling absolutely ravenous again. I tried to go back to sleep again and ignore the hunger but my body / brain was not having any of it so I got up and made something to eat. I’ve been wide awake for about 6 hours now since about 2am. I don’t feel tired and well it’s now time to get-up and have a shower. Then make the second application & then get my backside to work!
I’ve been thinking about doing a video diary so that I can look back and see if any change has occurred. I’m going to start it at the weekend and see what happens – I’ve seen some amazing results on YouTube where people in different circumstances to me have changed so dramatically over time. I’m not expecting miracles, I am however excited at the prospect of change!
So is the way with the NHS – nothing goes to plan does it?
11 days later than planned I finally get to pick-up my treatment from the chemist. This should have happened 11 days ago – when I turned up on the 5th of January to get my prescription. They told me it could take up-to another month as they had not received the letter – I was mortified. I had built myself up for that one moment.
A week later a letter from the hospital arrived asking me to see the specialist again. I’m not going to lie this freaked me out. I text one of my best friends for reassurance, as I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to sleep for worrying over what it could mean. I spent that evening awake, mulling over what it could be – is this the reason that the prescription wasn’t ready for me?
The next day I spoke to the secretary to the specialist who had to check a few things and get back to me. The first thing that they told me was that the letter had been faxed to the GP, sadly they admitted they had sent it to the wrong one & that they would send it on immediately to the right one. Then I asked about the letter – and they said that it was a clerical oversight as the specialist wanted me to try the treatment for about 4 months to see if anything improves with my condition.
I had to wait another couple of days for the GP (the right one) to write up the prescription and on Friday 13th 2012 I was able to collect it on my way to work. I was really excited to think that I would be able to start using it on the Saturday. Not happening! It would appear that the drug used is not something that’s prescribed often so most chemists have to order it in. So I have spent most of the weekend researching the changes ahead – most of which appear daunting.
There are a lot of scary videos on YouTube featuring people with gender issues taking Testosterone – this is not the reason that I am taking it. I’m happy to confirm that I have what I was meant to have – just missed out on a few other genes that give you muscles, body hair, focus, energy and libido.
From the research that I have done it would appear that I will notice change within a week of taking it;
increase in appetite
increase in muscular mass
change in body shape – shoulders broad & hips narrower
more energy – able to do more activity and not feel that lull that I often feel during the day
increase in libido – x 10 (One wish – purely in the name of science; that my ex-girlfriend would like to take a test drive to see if anything has changed – doubtful!!)
I’ll be reporting back this evening if I notice any differences in my day-to-day and then a follow-up soon after – wish me luck… I guess!